'For This Child I Have Prayed' is stitched on every Lullaby Set garment. It is a statement that originated and has rung true for our owner Kelli Stewart in five little ways. With Mother's Day this weekend, we took a few moments this week to sit down with her and talk a bit about her story and journey into Motherhood.
What does being a mother mean to you?
When thinking about my life, I always thought I’d be a mother of two with a nanny. I desperately wanted children, but when I found out I was having triplets, I was more than overwhelmed. I could not even tell my parents at first. But God knows best, doesn't He!? He gave me a peace that lasted through a very scary pregnancy, through eight weeks in the NICU, through my husband having to work in Hawaii right after the NICU and through two more babies over the next three years. I have fallen in love with being a Mom because I have fallen in love with those babies! I feel so grateful that God gave them to Scott and me to raise.
What was it like when you found out you were pregnant ... with triplets??
I 'struggled' with infertility for two years. It is a very long story but when the Doctor's told me that I couldn't have children, I went home and prayed and cried out to God. He gave me a peace in my heart that I would, in fact, have children but that I had to trust Him, and be patient because it would be a long road.
My heart goes out to anyone struggling with infertility because I know, every single month that a pregnancy test comes back negative, your heart breaks all over again. Then, your hopes get up, only to be crushed again the next month.
After a lot of prayer and a lot of doors opening (that only God could open) Scott and I did a procedure called IUI or 'Artificial Insemination'. The doctors kept telling mt that my chances were not good, and I had resolved that maybe, having children wasn't in God’s plan for me.
A month after that, the doctors told me that I was 'barely' pregnant and to expect a miscarriage. Another month later and I was already showing and there were (gulp) three heartbeats! When I heard 'three heartbeats', I freaked out and screamed 'Triplets!'. My husband tried to calm me down and said, "that is not what they are saying", to which the Doctor replied "No, that's exactly what I am saying".
The initial shock was overwhelming, I went home and cried, I thought about all the superficial stuff; What kind of car would I drive? How would I afford to dress them cute? The list goes on and on. In just a week or two, Scott, God and I were all on the same page. Scott and I had peace. God has us and these babies! The road wasn't easy, but we never lost that peace and Kinley, Maylin and Grace joined our family.
What was it like to find out you were expecting Elle and then Graham?
After I had triplets, the doctors told me that I couldn't have children on my own. Imagine my surprise when almost two years later, I show up pregnant. We just knew it was a miracle and that God wanted us to have a boy! Turns out, he wanted us to have another girl, and her name is Elle.
Just six very short months later (I was still nursing!) I showed up pregnant again! And here we are, with baby boy Graham joining our family and realizing I now have five kids all four and under. It really is like I blinked and became a mother of five. It was never in my 'plan' but per the norm, God knows best, and I wouldn't have it any other way.
What is your wish for your children?
I cry because they are growing up too fast but at the same time, I cannot wait to see what God has in store for their future. My heart's cry to the Lord, is that they will fall in love with Him at a young age. I had the blessing of knowing Him very young and I have never felt alone, I have always felt loved. I would love nothing more for my children.
Do you have memories of your first Mother's Day?
It is so funny, I look back on my first Mother's Day, and it's all honestly a blur. But I do know the girls were wearing Lullaby Set Daygowns!! They were 8 months old and so very tiny. At that point I had no idea that owning Lullaby Set was in my future. But I did know that I had prayed for these sweet girls with all of my heart and was so blessed by His grace and love.
How would you like to spend Mother's Day this year?
I would love to go to church on Mother's Day with my parents, my brother's and their families and my family of seven. I know that is not in the cards for this year, so we will enjoy our house and Praise God as a family from home.
I will try to reflect on how I want my children to remember me. I always say that if you want to be known as a person who makes their bed every day, then you have to be the person that makes their bed every day. I must make up my mind of who I want to be as a Mother and put it into practice. It does not mean that I have to be perfect, but I do try to be intentional and pray that God shapes me into the Mother that my children need.
We as a team, pray weekly for the wearers of Lullaby Set. We do this knowing how hard you have all prayed for your little ones and that we too, are surrounding them in God’s love. And this week and extra special prayer to all you Mothers, Grandmothers, Godmothers, and any woman that has the joy of being a mother figure to a little one. Know that you appreciated and loved! Have a Happy Mother’s Day!